Having A Special Someone

So this has never been a situation for me personally, until now. It's the weirdest thing, too, after all this time, to have this connection with someone. But there ARE upsides and downsides to it, and even though I'm pretty sure almost every girl has more experience than me, these are, IN MY OPINION, the pros and cons. PRO: you feel really special. Every time some nice comment is said to me, I think, wow, he didn't have to say something that sweet, but he did anyway! It's never been like that before, even with my friends, where someone considers me special, because in my friend group, no one designates a certain other friend as their best friend; we all just mesh together and it's great. But this new dynamic of exclusive interest is super fascinating! Not to mention it makes me giddy! Just when he said something like, "you look great just the way you are" when I was talking about maybe getting contacts, it just flew me to the moon, and I was hopping around HEB like an idiot! But hey, girls are allowed to go crazy over that kind of lovey dovey stuff, right? Well, that's the flip side. CON: your emotions are too heavily influenced by what he does or doesn't do. While waiting for a text, I have become intensely frustrated and impatient, not to mention inexplicably sad just because it took a little too long! And a friend once said to me when describing her own toxic relationship, "it's just so great to be free from letting him control me, like getting bummed when he doesn't call. His actions and feelings shouldn't be the basis of my happiness." And I completely agree with her. I found myself acting all pouty and moody just because he didn't live up to my expectations - and nothing major, mind you. It was a trivial text message; in response to something I said, he texted back "K". Now I know that's lame, I think everyone knows it's lame, but I got all worked up about it, acting as if it was a dealbreaker and all that. But regardless of his texting back a retraction of that text 2 minutes later, I was astounded by how my emotions went on such a roller coaster in that short time. Are all girls like this? Am I a typical estrogen-driven female who can only ride out her emotions and not conquer them? I'm pretty sure we aren't all fated to end up fitting in that retro stereotype! At any rate, when I started this post, I thought I'd have multiple pros and cons, but now I think I've said it all. The others must have escaped my mind, but obviously there are more. It's just these two are my main issues. But it's something to think about. Even in other kinds of relationships, whether they're exclusive or communal or short-term or whatever, can it ever be healthy to simply give away the control of how you feel on a silver platter to any punk with the know-how to take it? I don't think so. And whether you try to deny it or not, deep down, neither do you.