Eternally Chubby, Occasionally Slim
I have always been chubby. A couple times I have been fat. But being slim has been the exception in my life, occurring in particularly image-conscious seasons wherein I was trying to attract a mate. I have known that my body is structured in such a way that it really wants to hold onto calories. My sister who is fifteen years older than me has essentially the same body type as me. I watched her struggle after having two kids, but started to notice as I went into college that her approach to losing weight was always extreme. She has subscribed to every diet fad that I can think of that has passed through pop culture. The low-fat and low-carb diet in the 2000s, then keto in the 2010s. It has been a joke in the past few years to see whether she was vegetarian or not on a given day, because she started and quit nearly every week. Now she is 40 and quite overweight. I watched her fight to stay in shape for years. I'm grateful, because I saw that throwing one's self into a difficult
